synchronisity

I've been hearing concerns that all my posts are, well, a tad depressing. and that's the wrong image to give out about my life here in Portland. sure. at 2am when i can't fall asleep and my life doesn't seem to amount to much, dark thoughts tend to swirl in my head and writing has always been a sort of therapy for me; so i do what i know how to do to deal with the negative thoughts. get them out my head and into the world.....maybe some one out there can see them and know they're not alone; or something.

in reality; most days i feel so good its somewhat alarming; having spent most of my life feeling blah.

i'm realizing that its a process you have to go through to allow yourself to be happy and feel secure in your decisions.

today was one of those days where things were beautiful and i began to see my life fitting together and making sense....


it started with an interview at a physiologist's office who is looking for an office/project manager for his growing ecophysicology firm....

it went pretty well, BUT he did say he has a lot of applicants....eh. whatev. its something i could do and be good at, but nothing that really excites me....

after that i stopped by radio shack and had a really de-humanizing experience...all i wanted was some freakin batteries for my new (used) camera...and the guy ended up trying to sell me a freakin charger and three times as many batteries as i need....and a credit card, and a job!!! DAMN! anyway- i left there with no batteries and a memory of why i hate radio shack and a vow to never enter that damn store again....as for a job there??? please! me? a sales lady? someone who hates consumption? HA.


THEN i had a coffee meeting/get together with a landscape architect i met recently. {story of meeting- i ever so briefly tried my hand at renewable energy sales- sucked! not only was it a sales position, but it was door to door to boot! ANYWAY. one of the supervisors there is this really awesome lady that does a lot of social justice work and the other weekend she was having a party; and i overheard a lady say she's a larcher, so i butted in and said i have bla.....} the meeting was pretty fun; she kinda got into the profession the same way i did- round about from art- and is actually practicing and licensed and all that good stuff; so we talked shop a little bit- me about some of the projects i'm involved in (depave.org and city riparian) and she talked about some of her experiences working in high end residential....any way, it was decided that we should approach a building owner that approached depave about removing some asphalt and seeing if we can finagle some compensation for some design services!! WOOT!

as i was leaving that meeting, i ran into Albert who is paying me to do some research/writing on population growth and Amy Pearl who is the exec. dir of this social entrepreneurship organization {who i've know for a spell through trying to get things accomplished for gms...} they were having a small get together, talking about the upcoming social change (or something) forum they're planning at my new favorite coffee shop; urban grind. i'm pretty excited about it and am willing to throw some energy into it; especially some community mapping stuff....


now i'm home; and wanting to nap before my T-Horse meeting, but feeling wired- but in that bad way....wired and fried.


oh...at one point i did make it to fred meyers to get both film and batteries.....but DAMN! B&W film is freakin expensive!!


so there you have it- an up beat post from Rose City.