a posting from the land of light and magic

as my unemployment drags on, i realize how much i'm trapped between the life i'm living, the life i want to live and reality. the former two may have little, if anything to do with the latter.

but what is reality. i mean, the world is what and how i experience it, so how to do i divide what is really real and what i perceive to be real? the people that have always made the biggest difference in this world lived in a reality that was somewhat removed from the reality of other people....they saw and perceived things that others didn't; but most importantly, helped to bring those things to the light of others....

realizing that, i know that i have to keep going down the path i am on, as scary and unreasonable it may seem (even; maybe especially even; to myself)....sometimes i do wonder what the crap i'm trying to do, trying to prove; and sometimes i don't have an answer for myself, but when i do; its something about living a life without fear, without boundaries; joyfully embracing the desperate times we are in and the responsibilities that hands to each and every one of us.

i joyfully refuse to give into negative prophecies of our future, i joyfully refuse to give into the fear the government tries to install in each of us. i joyfully refuse to not believe in magic and love.

i joyfully refuse to believe that peace is not possible.

i try, each day, to joyfully live life and not beat myself up, and not get stuck in the negativity and self doubt.


these times are ripe with the promise of change. it is up to each of us to be that change we wish to see.


so everyday, i need to ask myself, what is the change i want to see, and how can i be it? and move slowly, closer to that change.


peace be with you.